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Michelle would like to share the following letter she wrote to the judge who recently sentenced her to 180 days in jail.

October 29, 2007

          They say with great loss comes a sense of appreciation, I found this to be true growing up. When I moved here to Hollywood California four years ago with prosperity in my pocket, I briefly lost that sense of awe and appreciation for everyday life...excess became, what seemed at the time, my only remedy... Yeah, it took me a lot of falls to wake up, breathe, and appreciate again. I recall in my first interview, the reporter asked me: "Is there anything else you want to say to people about yourself that I haven't covered", and I said: "Yeah, Leave room for mistakes, I'm Human." Those words have resonated with me more than ever in the last four years. I believe everyone has a peak evolutionary level to grow from, individual and distinct to their own experiences in life. Personally for me, I don't know if it was the loss of material objects; my house, my cars, my bank account, the notoriety in my career, or the almost two years of not doing what I love because my peers deemed me 'too irresponsible to work with'... I do know one thing, I have evolved since then. I may not be a good time keeper and I may have punctuality issues and many other positive traits I'm tardy in acquiring, yet I have to say above all, I have gained a good moral grounding, I take responsibility for my actions, and I'm far from being an ill willed, ignorant, or a sneaky human in any way. The hardships and growing pains that I have lived do not complete the equation of who I am. I am incredibly grateful that no one was harmed but me in this long process of awakening as I am deeply sorry to all my family, friends, coworkers and fans that have been let down by my slow growth process.

At this point I can only plea at the mercy of this court and the people, that the repercussions of my past actions do not affect the work, livelihood, and sustenance I provide for myself and my family dependent. I have reached the end of my rope with regards to my career. It has taken me two years to slow down and pay attention. My peers have begun to take notice of this change and have called me back to a position in society as a working class citizen. I only ask knowing I have been given many chances to follow the structure and guidelines provided, and I am well aware of my actions and their possible repercussions. My plea to this court and the people is merely that my debts to society do not interfere with my livelihood or that of my family dependent.

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